All in a Week's Time

Dear Jack, (he can already read)

You came to us just over a week now, and man it is hard to believe all that has come about in only a week. Never has one week changed your mama like this week has. Before you were born, everyone said, "You're life will never be the same..." and I thought, yeah yeah, of course not- that's the whole point, right? But, what I didn't realize is that I would suddenly feel things, see things, and become things, that I had never felt, seen, and been before.

I never knew that as each day passed I would want to freeze time to keep you just like you are now.

I never knew that I would so instantly feel connected to you. That didn't even take a week's time.

I didn't know that I could just sit and stare at you for approximately 23.5 hours of the day and be perfectly content.

I have never been so aware of my inadequecies as I have this week. But, in an instant, you're able to make me feel more confident that I've ever been just by looking at me like you know my voice.

I always knew that your dad was a great guy, but I didn't expect to see him change the second you were born. You can see how much he loves you already. He has been nothing but supportive, devoted, understanding, and comforting over this past week. Just a couple of nights ago, I heard him laughing hysterically. Suddenly, I realized that the Chappelle Show has been replaced by your little mug making funny faces and completely cracking him up. I am so glad and lucky that I get to do this parent thing with him.

He's going to take good care of us, buddy.

All in a short week, I have a new appreciation for my own mom and dad. I've always appreciated everything they've done for me (and that's A LOT), but now I have a taste what they've felt, and that's a whole new story.

The time we've been home together this week, has given me lots of time to think back to your birthday. It was a bit rough, dude, but it was OURS, together, and I love it.

I love you.

I'd sit on a donut for the rest of my life just to have you around like we have for this past week. I'm so happy to be able to have you around this week and every week to come, because I know I have lots more to learn from you and about 9 billion more pictures to take of you.

Thanks for being patient with us this week, mister. We'll get better at this and I'll make it my goal this week to save you from peeing in your own face ever again.

More than anything else, all in a week's time, you've made me genuinely happy.

Thanks, Jack.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo a million times.

Mom